I sit on overcast days,
with my eyes glazed
Amazed at the way
the sun rays
affect the maze
Only God can take away my seed
And only God can give
me back what I need
It doesn't matter
cause we're anxiously awaiting
Watching all the doctors
has my heart racing
What's that they're saying?
I don't understand
How can I describe
the feelings of the man
Who lost his children
and since I've been building
I'll see how she's feeling
since her memory is gone
Despite the killing
I'll keep on fulfilling
Cause I'm pushed to the city
but now it's a song
I'm on the streets,
arms filled with grief
Lost all my peace
when I found that God's a thief
Where's all the heat?
My heart's become cold
I'd rather choose death
than watch these problems unfold
I stroll through the heavens
holding hands with my twins
Faith of God's forgiveness
and declared all my sins
Who's next to kin?
His spirit all be gins
To die a fast death
is the only way I'll win
I'll spread the wings of my soul,
catch the wind's breath
Suggest a new life
since I'm consumed by death
Walk in the flesh, you'd understand,
I felt the fingertips slip
right down my hands
I don't even know if you
can hear me at all,
I'm sitting in this bed
with my hands upon the floor
Seems to me you
a million miles away,
but it doesn't seem to matter
what words I say
You're sitting in heaven up there,
I don't even know if you care
You're sitting in heaven up there,
I don't even know if you care
I don't even know
who can hear me at all
Two knees bent, hands on the floor
Seems to me you a million miles away
It doesn't seem to matter
what the words I say
You sitting in the heaven I fell
I don't even know if I care
God's eyes are closed,
he must have turned his back
Now it's time for me to pick up the slack
But who am I to blame?
I'll probably do the same
Change the rules of the game,
so I guess I can't complain
I try to tame the shame,
but the flames from my dame
Never feel the same
since the saints that I became
That would've had my name,
but took my will to live
Did more to this kid
than what a gunshot could give
No self -expression,
my soul's in recession
I'll take this mythic lesson
and finish my aggression
Shoot all the people,
make them feel equal
I'm overcome,
my evil can't stand what's at the steeple
The problem seems to be
that my anger's what you make it
I might as well be living
in the freezing winter naked
I'll take it, cause the anger
makes you strong
Let's all sing along till
we feel we belong
It doesn't matter if
your soul wants to listen
It doesn't matter if
you lost all your vision
It doesn't matter if
you're stuck inside a prison
It doesn't matter if you got
the world wishing
It's your decision,
we seem to make it clear
How can we follow
when the boat's not being steered?
Captain, Captain,
the ship's going down
Captain, Captain,
she wears the Lord's crown
Captain, Captain, she blames it on me
Captain, Captain, the ship ain't out to sea
I don't even know if you can
feel me at all
You've been handsome on the floor
She's a million,
you a million miles away
Doesn't seem to matter
what words I say
You're sittin' in heaven up there
I don't even know if you care
You're sittin' in heaven up there
I don't even know if you care
I don't even know if you
can feel me at all
You've been handsome on the floor
She's me, you a million miles away
It doesn't seem to matter
what words I say
She's sitting in the heaven I fell
I don't even know if you care
I'm too close and too broke,
my heart chokes
I soak in the sorrow
that is soaked in my soul
I fought on the road,
and fought what you stole
I thought that they'd grow,
but it's not what you know
And it's not what you told,
so this life ain't to hold
And all the silver and gold
can't fill up this hole
Long is the road, long is the road,
long is the
Depression sets in, where's it going,
how could this happen
If you're all knowing,
what do I pursue
when there's nothing left to do
Hell became real, and where were you,
I knew I had it easy
I knew I'd touch the sky,
I knew life would feed me
but I couldn't say bye
There's nothing worse
than missing the birth
and I'll never stop searching
Since my life is cursed
and I might as well die
Cause I've lost lives high,
and I'll never cry if I turn to suicide
I saw the footsteps,
taken with such care
Why'd I lose the pair
that ripped my soul bare?
God's got your back,
but God must be frontin'
Cause right before my eyes,
God told everything to nothin'
I lived my life through them,
so I could see
When things fell apart,
still don't have to live through me
Every parent's a parent,
when it comes to peace
I never was a parent,
cause my kids had to leave
It always seems to be
that you made your choice vital
My spirit's been formed
like the sun hitting vinyl
My spinal cord stretched from
one God's edge
Reaction so intense
I became a poor wretch
Far from a stretch,
my feelings so empty
Considered pure joy
since it's what God sent me
I don't even know if you
can hear me at all
You see me as a friend,
hands on the floor
Seems to me you
a million miles away
Doesn't seem to matter
what words I say
You sitting in heaven up there
I don't even know if you care
But you sittin' in heaven up there,
I don't even know if you care
But you don't even know
if you can hear me at all
Soon he's bent, hands up on the floor
Seems to me you a million miles away
But it doesn't seem to matter
what words you say
But you sittin' in heaven up there,
I don't even know if you care
I'm have a time
I'm gonna have a good time
I'm gonna have a good time